Saturday, July 22, 2006

Go Team!


Over the past few years, I've become a much bigger sports fan. I started to think about why that's so because only recently, I've realized how much more of a sports I am now than before. There are several obvious moments that come to mind. The more and more time I spend away from home (Boston), whatever feelings I have for homesickness may get sublimated in increasing excitement for anything that relates to Boston - clam chowdah, lobstah and of course, Boston sports teams. Also, the teams I've been routing for have been tremendously successful culminating in the 04-05 season when the Patriots won 2 Superbowls, the Red Sox ended the curse and Illinois almost won a national championship. Now, I've realized that there's a deeper reason: politics.

Up until recently, I was a news junkie - reading daily newspapers starting with the Times, then Boston Globe and then reading about whatever city I am currently living in. For commentary and analysis of current affairs, I kept up with what the New Yorker, the Economist, Esquire and Playboy had to say. Ever since Dubya took office and especially after the invasion of Iraq, I've become increasingly disillusioned with what's going on in the world let alone this country. It depresses me to read the news. I end up expending too much energy worrying and arguing about what's going on in the world.

It's not getting any better and I find myself reading the aforementioned publications less and less. Where has my attention been shifted to? Sports, the arts, fashion, food and wine. Out of all these, sports seems to be the one area most insulated from the political bullshit that pisses me off. There are exceptions like the Tillman scandal and the steroids bullshit.

So here's what I'm reading these days. I still read the Times by skimming the headlines and then moving immediately to the Food and Wine section and then the Arts section with rare forays into other sections. The Arts section of the Times has become embarassingly bad. For music, I rely on Alex Ross's blog, therestisnoise.com, for Classical music, postings on my friend's Livejournal at http://stufsocker.livejournal.com/ for popular music, and I've found that myspace does a surprisingly good job of filling in the blanks between the two genres. For the magazines listed above, I try to skip over all the political stuff unless I know I'm going into a situation where I will inevitably have to argue my position. In these instances, the New Yorker and the Economist are great for unique insights on matters at hand and Playboy is perfect for concise factoids that serve my argument. Esquire seems to be moving toward the right more, unfortunately so that magazine's only good for articles on fashion, electronics and celebrity interviews these days.

I also got satellite radio over a year ago. I was excited about all the talk radio possibilities but I find that I pretty much stick with NFL radio and Raw Dog comedy stations. NPR just gets me depressed unless they're doing an arts review or telling me which Chassagne-Montrachet is the best bang for the buck.

So instead of worrying about the Middle East, the Bush administration laying off half the IRS lawyers in order to help their rich friends and such, I can't wait until preseason football and the MLB playoffs to get rolling.

Go Patriots! Go Red Sox!

Monday, July 17, 2006

Films, films, films!

1) Does film best tell the truth (Godard) or tell lies (De Palma) at 24 frames per second? They're both full of shit. They should concentrate on making good movies not on spouting philosophical bullshit about their medium.

2) Ideal pairing of actors/actresses to play on-screen siblings: Jude Law, Joaquin Phoenix.

3) Favorite special effects moment: Final scene of Boogie Nights....

4) Matt Damon or George Clooney? Too close to call. Probably Clooney.

5) What is the movie you’ve encouraged more people to see than any other? Tampopo, 8 1/2, Flirting with Disaster.

6) Favorite film of 1934: Don't care for any of them really. It Happened One Night would be my choice even though I can't stand Clark Gable. Had I seen Ukigusa monogatari, that would be my favorite.

7) Your favorite movie theater: The Senator Theatre in Baltimore.

8) Jean Arthur or Irene Dunne? Jean Arthur

9) Favorite film made for children: Piocchio, ET

10) Favorite Martin Scorsese Movie: Raging Bull

11) Favorite film about children: Radio Days

12) Favorite film of 1954: Tough one! Seven Samurai.

13) Favorite screenplay written by a writer more famous for literature than screenplays: Empire of the Sun by Tom Stoppard, Crash by J.G. Ballard

14) Walter Matthau or Jack Lemmon? Jack Lemmon

15) Favorite character name: Dirk Diggler.

16) Favorite screenplay adapted from a work of great literature, either by the author himself or by someone else: Godfather and Amadeus - both movies are better than the book, believe it or not.

17) Favorite film of 1974: Chinatown.

18) Joan Severance or Shannon Tweed? Joan Severance.

19) jackass: the movie-- yes or no? not interested.

20) Favorite John Cassavetes Movie:

21) First R-rated movie you ever saw: Police Academy?

22) Favorite X-rated film (remember that, while your answer may well be a famous or not-so-famous hard-core film, the "X" rating was once also a legitimate rating that did not necessarily connote pornography): Midnight Cowboy - I can't think of any other serious movie that got an X rating.

23) Best film of 1994: Wow! Tough call! Shawshank Redemption, Trois Couleurs, Eat Drink Man Woman.

24) Describe a moment in a movie that made you weep: In Schindler's List when Schindler asks the former rabbi working in his factory why he's not observing the Sabbath - the expression on the rabbi's face, then cut to an impromptu Sabbath service led by the same rabbi.

25) Ewan McGregor or Ewan Bremner? McGregor.

26) One of your favorite line readings (not necessarily one of your favorite lines) from this or any year: You fuck my wife? - Raging Bull

27) What, if any, element in a film, upon your hearing of its inclusion beforehand, would most likely prejudice you against seeing that film or keeping an open mind about it? Talking babies or animals, stupid animal jokes, Chris O'Donnell, Matthew McConaughey, Joel Schumacher directing, a bad film score, a lame sequel, a cheap copy of another movie, Sarah Jessica Parker, I could go on.

28) Favorite Terry Gilliam Movie: Brazil. Although I haven't seen all of it yet.

29) Jean Smart or Annie Potts? Jean Smart

30) Is it possible to know with any certainty if you could like or love someone based partially on their taste in movies? If so, what film might be a potential relationship deal-breaker for you, or the one that might just seal that deal?
It hasn't been the greatest indicator of love or the success of a relationship for me.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

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Stability |||||||||||| 46%
Orderliness |||||| 30%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||| 36%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Mystical |||||||||| 36%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Religious |||||||||||| 50%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Narcissism |||||||||||||| 56%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Self absorbed |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 43%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43%
Romantic |||||||||| 36%
Avoidant || 10%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63%
Wealth |||||||||| 36%
Dependency |||||||||||| 43%
Change averse |||||||||| 36%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50%
Physical security |||||||||| 36%
Physical Fitness |||||| 30%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Paranoia |||||||||| 36%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||| 50%
Female cliche |||||| 23%
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Sunday, July 02, 2006

What happened to Part II?

Well, I got busy and by the time I wanted to finish writing about my trip to California, I wasn't up for it. It was in the past. Basically, I did my best conducting to date at this workshop. The three teachers there, all of whom have a strong influence on the hiring of new conductors in the country, felt that I had great knowledge of the score, strong musical instincts, great potential.....and horrible technique. They had me work on technique the whole time. A lot of what I heard was different than what I'm used to. I've had three conducting teachers in my life. Two of them are disciples of the other one - I've pretty much have had one perspective. This gave me a lot to think about.

I made some great friends there. They were a lot more like the friends I have back at home rather than the ones I made in Illinois. We felt more comfortable about talking about anything - there were little or no worries about offending others or crossing lines and also, people were well versed culturally and could talk about anything we wanted especially when we got sick of talking about music.

In the end, I got invited back to the workshop for next year and I got a new reference that I can use. After doing some research, I've realized that this new reference can open some doors for me. I'm looking forward to the possibilities this may open up for me. So right now, it's all about finding a job.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Trip to California - Part I

I've been busy graduating and stuff. Stuff being preparing for a conducting workshop in Bakersfield, CA. Here's what went down day by day.

5/23 - At the last minute, I got an early ride into Chicago. This meant that I had to find a place to stay at the last minute. I ended up staying with a conductor friend who just won a big job in Winnipeg. I got up early in the morning and decided to kill time at the Art Institute of Chicago, take advantage of the free Tuesday thing, before I had to make it to Midway. I was surprised at how much of the museum I got to see. I made to the airport with more than enough time to get some studying in.

I got a great deal on Frontier Air at the last minute. I've never even heard of them. I thought that they were some ghetto-ass airline just scraping by. Actually, they're kinda like the new Southwest - cool amenities, great service and such. Plus, it's been a good decade and a half since I've been on a flight with hot flight attendants. Each seat had a TV, we got drink service twice, and they gave Sunchips and Doritos instead of peanuts.

I had a connecting flight out of Denver. The second leg of this trip was the most memorable flight I've ever had. It was a clear day, not a cloud to be seen. Of course, we flew over the Rockies and I just glared out my window the whole time. I made to interrupt my studying when we were flying over the Grand Canyon. Wow! A bird's eye view of two of America's great natural wonders within the span of hours!

Now we get to the strange part. This guy in his 50's asks to sit next to me. I get weird vibes from him so I let him and I just bury my head into Mozart 41 with my cd player blaring into my ear. He starts bugging me. Apparently, he's a composer who studied with Leon Kirchner at Harvard (believable) and with Milhaud in Paris (not so believable since he completely mispronounced his name!). I get even more suspicious. Since Brandeis and Harvard share faculty and that Brandeis's music department was modeled after Harvard's, I decide to ask him very specific questions about Harvard's program. I get very vague answers from him and sometimes, he didn't know what I was talking about. Who the fuck is this guy? Is he trying to pick me up? After my five years in Baltimore, I've become much more sensitive to subtle attempts by gay men trying to pick me up. So anyways, the guy gives me his number and E-mail. I only give him my E-mail. I think I just gave him my school account which will expire soon anyways. He then goes back to his seat. Weird.

As we get close to LAX, I see first hand at how bad the LA suburban sprall is. It's appalling - more on that later.... Anyways, LAX is a dump. Before I've left my terminal, I've already seen a dearth of plastic surgery and fake breast jobs. I have a little less than an hour before my bus so I head over to the international terminal for dinner. What a fucking zoo! I've never been in a busier airport terminal! I grab a bite of some pretty fucking good Mexican food and wait for my bus. The bus arrives 20 minutes late. I was freaking out until then thinking I had missed the bus or something. Anyways, as I leave the airport, I start to see that LA is everything that I suspected it to be. First, out of the airport, all I see ismiles and miles of hotels. After that, strip malls. All the buildings have an extra level of glitz, whether it's a warehouse or a movie theatre. As if you didn't need any reminders that Hollywood's close by. I get a call from an old college friend and we make plans for the Tuesday after I'm done. I try to get more studying in but I'm too tired. I get to my hotel in Bakersfield and I watch ESPN until I fall asleep.

5/24 - I miraculously get up at eight in the morning. I get some studying in before I waste more time in front of the TV. For the first session, we get a choice to conducting either Brahms 4th Symphony or Mozart Jupiter Symphony. I can't decide! I know the Mozart better but it's harder to conduct. I decide to spend some quality time with the Mozart and it paid off. I start seeing all these things that I never saw before. The problem with Mozart is that his music is incredibly complex and subtle at the same time. Something is always changing in his music. In order to make Mozart sound interesting, one has to find all these subtle changes, figure out how to highlight them and not overdo it. I start finding all these suspensions and pedals to bring out, really cool voice leadings (gotta love Schenker!). Finally, the piece makes sense as an interpretive whole!

I decide to spend some time with the Brahms only to realize how much of the Brahms I don't know. After much frustration and Sportscenter, I decide to go downstairs and have an overpriced lunch in the hotel's "bistro". Only later, I discover that almost everything in Bakersfield is overpriced. After a nap and some more studying, I get dressed for the reception. I meet my friend downstairs. She has already met two of the other conductors so we proceed to walk over to the club where the reception's being held. Gradually, we run into more and more conductors.

Suddenly, I realize the one thing I hate the most about conducting - the corporate like culture it seems to steep itself in. One of the reasons I decided to go into music was because I wanted to avoid all that bullshit but here we are at a meet and greet that totally belongs in a sales conference. Puke! I get a huge blast of this form of BS from this very butch and self-confident conductor from Ohio. She's oozing so much fake persona out of her that she comes across as being soulless. Plus, she's wearing these disgusting cargo pants with every single pocket filled to the brim, which she proceeded to wear every single except the one day she actually resembled a conductor on the podium. She starts boasting about her career and how she's been to this workshop for four years now. So I meet a few more people like her, not quite as bad, and I feel despair about my career choice. Only after all the introductions, I meet people more my speed. Don't get me started on the introductions - again think sales conference. I meet the teacher that's running the workshop. He knows one of my music professors here at the U of I very well. Great ice breaker. After meeting some more interesting conductors, I feel a sense of relief that socially, I'll be just fine as long as I avoid certain people.

I look at the schedule and see that I always conduct on the second session. This means I have another day to decide on what to conduct. I didn't quite know what to expect from the other conductors at the first session. A close friend of mine told me that the level of conducting is really low and that the orchestra is not very responsive. Another friend told me that my other friend is full of shit. Then, I hear that the level this year is much higher. At the first session, the level of conducting seems promising but I was shocked at the lack of preparation on the part of these conductors. The teachers don't ease into it. Very soon into the workshop, they already start laying into people. I finally decide to do the first movement of the Mozart the next day after seeing how the first day went. After hanging out at the bar with some of my new friends, I head back to my room. I practice a little bit and become distraught at how it went. I try to get my mind off things by numbing the mind to what the TV has to offer....

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Fucking gas prices.....

I just found out the reason for the most recent jump in gas prices. Refineries are in the midst of switching from MTBE to ethanol additives in gasoline. Ethanol's cleaner but much more expensive to transport. What I don't get is why are we in Illinois getting screwed? We're surrounded by cornfields - the primary source for ethanol. It's like when I was a vegetarian and had to go to a kosher meat restaurant with my friends. Kosher meat is expensive, so naturally, the prices at such an establishment is higher than expected. My problem was that the vegetarian meals were marked up just as much as the meat stuff. Almost $10 for vegetable lo mein? Are you fucking kidding me? $2.92/gallon, are you fucking kidding me? I bitch and moan as unemployment looms in the horizon.....

Monday, April 24, 2006

Allergic to the Midwest

I've been having some major issues with allergies lately. It's to the point where claritin doesn't even do the trick. After 8-9 years of having little to no problems with allergies, it started to be an issue like never before once I moved to Illinois. I never remember it being this bad.

Through high school and my first year in college, I'd have seasonal issues with allergies - fall, spring along with 2-3 nasty sinus infections a year. When I got into meditation - around my sophomore year in college, I started to have less problems. After my second stay in a Buddhist monastery, I no longer had any problems. In fact, I didn't get sick for 3 years. I'd have small fits of issues with allergies in Baltimore but nothing to be worried about.

Obviously, a large part of the reaction is psychosomatic. So in short, I'm allergic to the Midwest! This is not a total indictment to this area. I always viewed my stay here as temporary. I never wanted to get too comfortable here. In that vein, I never got completely settled in and used to how things work here. I've pissed off my share of people and rubbed others the wrong way. Part of it is indeed a slight cultural difference but I am willing to own up to me not being the best person in the world at times.

So what can I do about my allergy? The simplest thing is to get the hell away from here. I still have some more time here, my wonderful girlfriend is here and not leaving until her Ph. D. is done, and there's a real possibility that I won't be gainfully employed in the field of my choosing by the time I graduate. So for now, pop those pills, meditate more and not be such a cynical asshole and see if that makes me feel better I guess!