Fear of Leaving the Comforts of Urban Life

I have a bunch of auditions coming up. There's a good chance that I'll be moving away from Baltimore. Two of the choices scare me: Urbana, IL and Muncie, IN. I have never been more than 1/2 hour away from a big city. I was born in one of the largest cities in the world - Seoul, Korea. I then moved to Paramus, NJ and to Lincoln Park, NJ - both within strinking distance of New York City. I spent most of my life in Norwood, MA - right outside of Boston. I spent my college years even closer to Boston. And for the past 4 1/2 years, I went back to my roots, I guess, and lived in a big city.

Even Baltimore isn't much to write home about but it's still a major metropolitan area. I still find more than enough ways to keep me occupied even though the other cities mentioned above offer many more choices. Besides, if I get bored, there's always Philly and DC. The prospect of living in Midwest-Bumfuck made me realize that although Baltimore sucks, it has a lot more to offer than a couple of college towns in the middle of cornfields.

I am truly frightened by this. I want museums, concert halls, theatres, cool restaurants and bars at my disposal. I want to be tapped into the vibrant energy any large metropolitan area gives off. With the diversity inherent in a city, I never felt out of place. I can't even fathom or conceptualize what life will be like for me in the Midwest. Here's hoping that Boston will come through.....